Nobody's home

Her feelings she hides
Her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's falling behind

She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's falling from Grace
She's all over the place

The song Nobody's Home is a clear representation of how Ester, the main character in The Bell Jar, feels emotionally. Ester is getting a good education, a loving boyfriend, and the opportunity to live in New York for a month and do what she loves most, writting. Yet, she is notsatisfied. Often, she makes big plans for her future, such as become an accomplished writer and editor. "What I always had in mind was getting some big scholarship to graduate school or a grant to study all over Europe, and then I thought I'd be a professor and write books of poems and be an editor of some sort. Usually I had these plans on the tip of my tongue" (Plath, 32). However, along the way to achieving her dreams, she takes an unexpected wrong turn when she does not get accepted into the writting course she was hoping to get into. This causes her to have a panic attack and go into a deep depression. This time in her life related to the lyrics "Her feelings she hides, Her dreams she can't find, She's losing her mind, she's falling behind." As she goes deeper and deeper into her depression, she slowly losses all hope and happiness and attempts to end her own life. At this point she is, like the song suggests, "losing her faith, she's falling from Grace, she's all over the place." The song title also connects to Ester, because when Nobody is home, she decides to kill her herself. And like the songs says, when "nobody's home, theres no place to go... she's broken inside." This truely explains Ester, who feels like darkness surrounds her and that her life is meaningless. She explains that, "wherever I sat - on the deck of a ship or at a street cafe in Paris or Bangkok - I would be sitting under the same glass bell jar, stewing in my own sour air," (Plath, 185). Ester believes that she is stuck under a glass jar and that wherever she goes, she will still be crazy, depressed, and surrounded by the darkness that is engulfing her from the inside out.